Pretend

 You told that story with high enthusiasm. I was listening to you, and thinking about this sentence:

I don't belong here.

I recalled a sentence from one I watched last night:

We are good at acting.

I remembered what my teacher told me:

Acting is an important skill.

I remembered what my supervisor said:

I'm just.. thinking that they were behind me. They would not understand what I'm gonna say, and there is no point to say anything to them. So I'm just gonna pretend. Gladly, I found someone that I can share my true me. I feel so relieved when I am with her.

I remembered that song:

Pretend you're happy when you're blue
It isn't very hard to do
And you'll find happiness without an end
Whenever you pretend.

I remembered what has written in that manga:

Sometimes, what we say and what we do are not real yet, but it could be real some day.

...

What do you want to do?

I want to go,

Somewhere.

Maybe I'll be killed out there

But nobody never knows.